My guide dog Nama after six months

Welcome to May. Sorry I haven’t written here in such a long time. I was looking at my feed reader this morning and while grumbling to myself that my favourite blogs such as Paws for thought and K8 the Gr8 hadn’t been updated I felt a sudden pang of guilt for neglecting my own little corner of the blogosphere for so long. The thing is, there is a lot happening at the moment, but I’m out of the habit of blogging. So, when I sit down, so many topics are ready to be written about that it becomes a task of epic proportions. This blog is less about what has been happening and more an acknowledgement of having Nama, my guide dog for over six months and the success of this new working partnership.

Looking at everything Nama has done would take far too long. So instead, let me highlight some of the main points.

At a basic level, Nama has travelled to and from work with me every day from Monday to Friday since the middle of October. This might sound like a simple task however; consider that I live about 50km away from work so on an average week he travels to Dublin five times. That is about 240 bus trips in six months. Putting another slant on this, that’s 12000KM that he has travelled excluding other trips to Carlow, Galway, and Belfast and of course Dundalk. It’s a short trip to the bus station and slightly longer to the train station in Drogheda but our route to work in Dublin from getting off the bus or train is quite dynamic. Depending on the day, the weather or our mood, we can walk for quite a while before getting to the office. Changing routes keeps things interesting and a long walk first thing in the morning clears the head. We also vary our route at lunch time. Instead of just going to Stephens green and back we try to venture to different areas on the way back to work. It might be a quick diversion down Grafton Street or it could be a longer walk down by the department of Finance, by Pierce Street, across the quays, through temple bar, over college green and back up Nassau Street. The walk during lunch time blows away the cobwebs and gives Nama a good challenge to focus on. We regularly travel to several buildings in Dublin city centre during the day as well depending on the work we are doing so he has quite a busy working day. In the evenings, we sometimes go for a leisurely walk around Drogheda. I’ve got back into amateur radio lately so I can be seen walking around Drogheda with a dog in one hand and a radio in the other. That’s his standard working life. That sounds taxing enough but it’s the boring part. It’s the part we do because we have to.

The interesting work is when we head off to Carlow, Galway, Belfast or Dundalk. When he’s thrown into situations that are quite unusual and interesting. For example, during the recent pan celt festival in Carlow, he didn’t have a huge amount of work to do but he needed to walk to and from various sessions. He then had to tuck himself away quietly until I was ready to go. Some of these sessions lasted a very long time. Of course, walking between sessions meant that he was working through areas that he wasn’t familiar with and the idea of a defined route went out the window. For such a new dog this might seem like too much but he took it in his stride. In fact, on the Sunday, we had some time to kill while waiting on a train home so we set off walking. I had the idea that we’d just walk in a block formation and we’d end up somewhere that he would recognise and I’d be able to get him to find a land mark that he recognised. This works well usually. I can tell when he’s recognising something that we’ve been to before. He pulls into it with a lot of determination. So, when he finds it, I can orientate myself and give him more decisive commands to reach our destination. This was going well until we got to an area with a big open space and I lost my straight line for a moment. Little did I know, Nama was following the path to maintain the straight line but it didn’t feel right to me. He resorted to his usual giddy location of familiar land marks so we found where we were again and set off in the right direction. Although I thought we had gone wildly off course, we followed a perfect route around a large block area. It’s this willingness to work after being so quiet for so long and to handle new situations that really sets Nama apart. Of course, he’s not a machine. He has his own needs but I’ll get to these shortly.

One of his big trips in the past six months was a quick stay in France. We were invited over there to play music. He flew over and back with me without a single problem. The toileting facilities were about a ten minute walk away from the hotel but that didn’t bother him either. Again, he sat quietly when I was busy and in fact, he came on stage with me twice because I didn’t have someone to watch him for me. He doesn’t care about sound checks. He is more than happy to sleep through them! He visited the usual tourist attractions with me such as the church of Nostradamus, the burial tomb of napoleon and of course the Eiffel tower. ON the Eiffel tower we went right up to the highest floor and although it was very windy we walked around the external balcony. Absolutely none of it phased him. I personally hate the sensation of heights but it was exhilarating to be up there. Especially with Nama by my side guiding me around. I’ve said it before; I trust a guide dog more than I trust most sighted guides. There are obviously exceptions but if a stranger offers me assistance, I’ll use the dog. The way I see it, the dog has trained his whole life to guide me. The stranger hasn’t a clue. So, it was a little comforting to have Nama up there with me. I will also say that it is hard to explain how empowering and freeing it was to have Nama with me in France. I didn’t need to depend on anyone from the group I was with in unfamiliar areas, I could go off for a walk on my own around Paris and I could be a lot more self-sufficient. Parris isn’t the easiest place to walk around independently when you can’t see however although there was a language barrier, the locals were very helpful at crossings and areas where I needed a prod in the right direction. I’d definitely go back and in the future when I’m traveling, if it’s at all possible, I’ll have no hesitation in bringing Nama with me again.

Nama isn’t perfect. He’s far from it and in fact, he’s a lot of work. He has a serious problem with food distraction, he gets bored easily and if he gets an idea into his head it takes a few minutes to get him to snap out of it. He also took a long time to firm up on the basics of guiding when we got home. For example, he was very bad in crowds. One of the instructors noticed the potential for him to be a bit careless while on training so I was given some good tips to enforce the desired behaviour. The problem was that he was walking me straight into people, not moving far enough away from people who were walking toward us or brushing off people walking in the same direction as us. Most of these problems stemmed from an observation that he developed that people would move out of our way when we approached. It took me a few months to make Nama realize that it was his job to move out of the way. Not the other pedestrians. He got better slowly and he’s now at the point that when we’re in built up areas, I can tell him to be careful in a very relaxed tone and his awareness of the people around us is brilliant. One bit of advice we got when I was encountering this problem was to slow down and give Nama more time to react. This actually made no difference. I know with experience to slow down in crowds so I had already done this. He simply didn’t seem to care that we were walking into people. It was also really hard to correct him for doing it incorrectly because when we hit people they automatically assumed that they had done something wrong. We reinforced the correct response by simulating the problem repeatedly over a few weeks and then using the responses from the simulations in every day work. Even now, I have to stay vigilant because with all of his little quirks, he can regress easily if I don’t pay attention. So, the type of work that I enjoyed with Freddie where I could switch off and let him get me from A to B isn’t possible with Nama yet. However, it should go without saying that we are only six months into our working partnership so I nor expect or anticipate this yet. I mention it because it is something I am aspiring to. I will say that it’s important not to associate one working partnership with another but if I was to break that rule for a moment, I will say that Freddie’s guiding style and his ability to avoid stationary and moving obstacles is far superior to Nama’s. However, Nama is more resilient than Freddie. So, there are always strengths and weaknesses in every guide dog.

As I said earlier, Nama isn’t a machine. He has needs to maintain and establish a good working standard however these needs are easy to meet. Nama needs lots and lots of play time. IT might be while standing at a bus stop with him trying to grab my coat sleeve, or it might be at work when he decides that while I’m not too busy he’s going to come over to play with my shoe. We play first thing in the morning, when we get home from work and several times during the evening. He needs a lot of physical contact while playing as well. Other dogs might be mouthy when their young but I think he’ll remain that way. He is only rough with me and at times I’ve had to get him to settle down but he absolutely loves playing with his mouth. They say dogs hold stress in the muscles around their mouth so I spend a lot of time when he’s winding down playing with that area. He is quite destructive on toward dog toys so unfortunately the only toy he’s allowed walk around with is the Kong. I like him to have at least one toy to be able to bring around because it means he has something else to grab on to apart from me!

I was told when I got Nama first that he was quite aloof. This means emotionally and / or physically distant. I have no idea where they got this impression from. Nama is the clingiest dog I have ever met. I thought Freddie was my shadow. Nama is just ridiculous! I can’t go anywhere. He follows me around the house, around the office and around anywhere else we go. At home, he sits outside the bathroom door until I come out. IF I’m washing the dishes, he lies right behind my feet. If I’m hoovering the stairs he even tries to come with me. One friend thinks that this could be a sign of sensitivity but I don’t think so. He’s done this right from the start. When I was in the centre he tried to follow me around after the first few days. From getting home he has continued this. I’ve tried sending him away but he goes a few metres away and lies down again. If I close the door so that he’s in another room he starts crying. I’m not complaining. Far from it. We have an incredibly strong bond and that’s vitally important in attaining a lasting and productive working partnership.

So there you have it. I’m delighted with Nama’s progress. It should go without saying that I believe he has more growing to do and he needs to improve in some areas but we’re through our first six months. Let’s see where the next six months takes us. Already, I’m delighted to say that the best acknowledgement of the incredibly high standard of work that he does is to say that he has given me the freedom, independence and mobility that I haven’t enjoyed since before retiring Freddie.

Looking for a new job.

Some of you may know that I’m in the middle of searching for a new job at the moment. I have been working with Fujitsu for five years now and I must say, without any reservation I will tell you that it has been the most enjoyable five years ever. Fujitsu are a great company and the technology that I have had exposure to here probably can’t be matched by any other company. Most people after working in a company for five years find it hard to motivate them to get out of bed in the morning. I genuinely look forward to getting to my desk to tackle the days challenges. I don’t under value this. Coming to Fujitsu from a very unfair and very inflexible employer I really understand how horrible life can get when you hate your job. It’s not a nice situation to be in and to be honest with you, because Fujitsu are so far on the other end of the scale it has taken me a long time to make the decision to begin looking for a new role. When I find something new, I will very carefully weigh up the pros and cons of moving because I would never like to be in that situation again.

I am looking for a very different challenge now. I would like to remain in a system administrator type role but I would like to work for a small to mid-size company. I’d love the task of building up an infrastructure on a tight budget while at the same time working toward implementing the standards that would be found in a large enterprise network.

In a contract that I finished about six months ago, I was asked to upgrade the computer systems in a mid-size company with170 users. They were running on out dated systems and the connectivity between various offices in the buildings was established using a mixture of hardware. Their budget was very small and the task was very ambitious. With only a few thousand Euro they wanted a new active directory environment, Exchange, File servers, IIS hosting, an application server and a firewall / proxy combination. All this and they could really only afford two servers. On top of all this, they wanted the systems to have resiliency.

Unfortunately, the IT staff in the company had no experience with command line environments so using Linux servers was out of the question. That was unfortunate as it would have saved on licencing and system requirements. I decided to use Windows 2008R2 Core, Hyper-V and a spare workstation with more RAM and hard disks and a RAID controller to give them 2 domain controllers, 2 exchange servers, 2 file servers, 1 IIS server, and 1 Application server and thanks to some refurbished hardware, they also have a machine running PFSense for their firewall and proxying needs.

The system that I implemented has its limitations because of the lack of physical hosts but it is a huge step up compared to their old single server infrastructure. They have a high level of resiliency and the work was completed under the budget.

What is unfortunate from my perspective is that I know how their environment can be vastly improved. By insisting on a purchasing policy for all technical equipment the environment would become standards based within a few years, by implementing service level agreements, expectations would be set for users and they would be happier with the systems that they depend on. By implementing a formal helpdesk system would help manage the time spent by the IT staff fixing problems reported by end users while also giving end users exposure to the progress of their problems and finally documenting systems would help new IT staff get up to speed freeing up time for senior admins to concentrate on important infrastructural enhancements.

Basically, what it boils down to is I have the experience now of administering a reasonably large environment. I have followed and implemented best practices and I have completed more change controls than I would like to remember. I would now like to help a company that wants to mature their IT environment by giving them the benefit of my experience and my enthusiasm to tackle new problems.

As I see it, there are a few really important parts to making a reliable, efficient and secure computer system.

  • Use standard components… When possible buy hardware from one manufacturer.
  • Plan in advance and keep stakeholders informed.
  • When possible automate. When you can’t automate, make and follow a checklist.
  • Set realistic expectations for end users.
  • Document everything. You never know when you’re going to get hit by a bus.
  • Set policies. They set expectations for users, protect equipment, and promote standards.
  • Backup everything possible. Store backups in remote locations.

I could go on and on and on. But you get the idea. I have a passion for IT and I would really love to move to a company where I have more responsibility, more autonomy and more flexibility.

If you or someone you know are looking for a system administrator fitting my description please get in contact with me or download my CV.

Big big news in a little little bundle.

Well its crazy isn’t it? The past year has been absolutely brilliant for me. When the bells rang out for the New Year on January 1st 2012 I decided that that year was going to bring me something more than 2011 or 2010. It certainly didn’t disappoint. In January of last year I sent my parents off on a holiday to celebrate their 30th wedding anniversary, I finally proposed to my now wife Emma, we organized our wedding for new years eve of last year and now another thing has slotted into place for us.

Of course, I can’t forget that in October I also trained with my new guide dog Nama. He has given me a freedom and independence that I really missed since Freddie retired back in 2010.

However, that’s not why I’m writing today. Now, I’m writing to tell you on this blog before it is posted to any other social media that Emma is pregnant and in September, all going well, we will have our first child. We had the first scan today and everything seems to be going very well.

We have told three people outside our parents before today and I should take this opportunity to thank these three people for not letting the cat out of the bag. It was very important to us that we be allowed to spread the fantastic news when the time was right.

It’s been hard keeping this to myself. I’ve wanted to shout it from the roof tops since I found out in January.

I love children. Of course, I am very aware of the challenge ahead but I can’t wait for it. However, regardless how happy I am, I’m more happy for Emma. She was born to have children. Anyone who knows her will agree with me that she is a natural. She seems to know what they are thinking before they have even thought it. I can’t wait for her to be a mother because I know she’s going to be an amazing one.

So there you have it. Isn’t it funny? Ten years ago when I started DigitalDarragh.com the last thing that I ever thought would happen is that I’d become a daddy. It’s not something that I’ve warmed to overnight either. It’s something that I’ve only known I wanted in the past two or three years! Even then, and even now, I’m absolutely terrified. Will I be good enough? Will I be able to financially provide for a child? Will I be able to give her or him everything a sighted father would be able to provide? I know that last one might seem stupid to a lot of you but all of these questions and a lot more are racing through my head. I am worried by the questions but this worry is overshadowed by the delight I feel at the prospect of having a son or daughter with Emma.

Get the first album from Eitleán

As many of you know, for over a year now I have been playing music with a few great friends. Our band is called Eitleán. Watch out for us. With the news I am going to tell you today we are launching a major campaign to increase our exposure in the Traditional Irish music scene.

I am absolutely delighted to tell you that on Saturday we release our very first album. This has been in the works for a year now! We took our time getting it ready because as we recorded new tracks our style evolved. We wanted this to be very evident on our first release.

The album is called The Devil Set. It got its name because of the last track. Because it gets quite fast, Trudy, our accordion player nicknamed it The Devil Set. The name has stuck and it suits the informal nature of the band quite well.

The CD will be in shops next week for just €10.00 but if you want to grab a copy online, you can download it from the Eitlean website for just €8.00.

This weekend, we are welcoming people home in Dublin airport on Saturday and Sunday morning and on Sunday afternoon we jet off to Paris to perform twice before returning home on Tuesday evening.

Oh. One more thing. If your quick, and you like or share the Eitleán Facebook page before Saturday you’ll be in with a chance of winning a free copy of the album.

A small DNS experiment.

I was board for a minute and I thought to myself; wouldn’t it be cool to have DNS records that were required for administrators hidden from the rest of the company? OF course, it is an add on to the not so useful security through obscurity policy that a lot of companies develop but it would be an interesting exercise none the less. So, I thought to myself, hey active directory is integrated with DNS so maybe if I set permissions on a test zone to limit access I’d be able to verify my theory that DNS addresses could be hidden to users based on their group membership.

So this is what I tried:

  1. Create a zone in DNS.
  2. Create a record in that zone.
  3. Set permissions on that zone and the record so that a test user didn’t have access to it.
  4. block inheritance so that permissions provided to the parent zone wouldn’t be propagated to my new test zone.
  5. Open up a command prompt with the credentials of the test user so that only the authorizations provided to that test user is provided.
  6. Run nslookup
  7. Use the server you want to query. Type

    server 123.123.123.56

    replacing the IP with the IP of your DNS server.

  8. Look up the address to your new A record located within your test zone.

    blah.blah.local

That’s about it. I proved to myself that when your client looks up an address from DNS it doesn’t pass any security credentials. Or more accurately, the server side doesn’t respect any credentials that may or may not be passed to it. The permissions are set on the records to delegate permissions on an administrative level.

Creating a table of countries.

This is actually really easy but now that i’ve done it, I thought you might want a copy. So. Here goes. Just create your countries table, create a row for id and name, modify the below script to match your details and away you go.
This script to generate a countries table is written for SQL 2008.

USE [YourDatabaseName]
GO

INSERT INTO [dbo].[countriesTable]
([CountryName])

VALUES
(‘Afghanistan’),
(‘Albania’),
(‘Algeria’),
(‘American Samoa’),
(‘Andorra’),
(‘Angola’),
(‘Anguilla’),
(‘Antarctica’),
(‘Antigua and Barbuda’),
(‘Argentina’),
(‘Armenia’),
(‘Armenia’),
(‘Aruba’),
(‘Australia’),
(‘Austria’),
(‘Azerbaijan’),
(‘Azerbaijan’),
(‘Bahamas’),
(‘Bahrain’),
(‘Bangladesh’),
(‘Barbados’),
(‘Belarus’),
(‘Belgium’),
(‘Belize’),
(‘Benin’),
(‘Bermuda’),
(‘Bhutan’),
(‘Bolivia’),
(‘Bosnia and Herzegovina’),
(‘Botswana’),
(‘Bouvet Island’),
(‘Brazil’),
(‘British Indian Ocean Territory’),
(‘Brunei Darussalam’),
(‘Bulgaria’),
(‘Burkina Faso’),
(‘Burundi’),
(‘Cambodia’),
(‘Cameroon’),
(‘Canada’),
(‘Cape Verde’),
(‘Cayman Islands’),
(‘Central African Republic’),
(‘Chad’),
(‘Chile’),
(‘China’),
(‘Christmas Island’),
(‘Cocos KeelingIslands’),
(‘Colombia’),
(‘Comoros’),
(‘Congo’),
(‘Cook Islands’),
(‘Costa Rica’),
(‘Croatia’),
(‘Cuba’),
(‘Cyprus’),
(‘Czech Republic’),
(‘Denmark’),
(‘Djibouti’),
(‘Dominica’),
(‘Dominican Republic’),
(‘Easter Island’),
(‘Ecuador’),
(‘Egypt’),
(‘El Salvador’),
(‘Equatorial Guinea’),
(‘Eritrea’),
(‘Estonia’),
(‘Ethiopia’),
(‘Falkland Islands Malvinas,’),
(‘Faroe Islands’),
(‘Fiji’),
(‘Finland’),
(‘France’),
(‘French Guiana’),
(‘French Polynesia’),
(‘French Southern Territories’),
(‘Gabon’),
(‘Gambia’),
(‘Georgia’),
(‘Germany’),
(‘Ghana’),
(‘Gibraltar’),
(‘Greece’),
(‘Greenland’),
(‘Grenada’),
(‘Guadeloupe’),
(‘Guam’),
(‘Guatemala’),
(‘Guinea’),
(‘Guinea-bissau’),
(‘Guyana’),
(‘Haiti’),
(‘Heard Island and Mcdonald Islands’),
(‘Honduras’),
(‘Hong Kong’),
(‘Hungary’),
(‘Iceland’),
(‘India’),
(‘Indonesia’),
(‘Indonesia’),
(‘Iran’),
(‘Iraq’),
(‘Ireland’),
(‘Israel’),
(‘Italy’),
(‘Jamaica’),
(‘Japan’),
(‘Jordan’),
(‘Kazakhstan’),
(‘Kazakhstan’),
(‘Kenya’),
(‘Kiribati’),
(‘Korea’),
(‘Kosovo’),
(‘Kuwait’),
(‘Kyrgyzstan’),
(‘Laos’),
(‘Latvia’),
(‘Lebanon’),
(‘Lesotho’),
(‘Liberia’),
(‘Libyan Arab Jamahiriya’),
(‘Liechtenstein’),
(‘Lithuania’),
(‘Luxembourg’),
(‘Macau’),
(‘Macedonia’),
(‘Madagascar’),
(‘Malawi’),
(‘Malaysia’),
(‘Maldives’),
(‘Mali’),
(‘Malta’),
(‘Marshall Islands’),
(‘Martinique’),
(‘Mauritania’),
(‘Mauritius’),
(‘Mayotte’),
(‘Mexico’),
(‘Micronesia’),
(‘Moldova’),
(‘Monaco’),
(‘Mongolia’),
(‘Montenegro’),
(‘Montserrat’),
(‘Morocco’),
(‘Mozambique’),
(‘Myanmar’),
(‘Namibia’),
(‘Nauru’),
(‘Nepal’),
(‘Netherlands’),
(‘Netherlands Antilles’),
(‘New Caledonia’),
(‘New Zealand’),
(‘Nicaragua’),
(‘Niger’),
(‘Nigeria’),
(‘Niue’),
(‘Norfolk Island’),
(‘Northern Mariana Islands’),
(‘Norway’),
(‘Oman’),
(‘Pakistan’),
(‘Palau’),
(‘Palestinian Territory’),
(‘Panama’),
(‘Papua New Guinea’),
(‘Paraguay’),
(‘Peru’),
(‘Philippines’),
(‘Pitcairn’),
(‘Poland’),
(‘Portugal’),
(‘Puerto Rico’),
(‘Qatar’),
(‘Reunion’),
(‘Romania’),
(‘Russia’),
(‘Rwanda’),
(‘Saint Helena’),
(‘Saint Kitts and Nevis’),
(‘Saint Lucia’),
(‘Saint Pierre and Miquelon’),
(‘Saint Vincent and The Grenadines’),
(‘Samoa’),
(‘San Marino’),
(‘Sao Tome and Principe’),
(‘Saudi Arabia’),
(‘Senegal’),
(‘Serbia and Montenegro’),
(‘Seychelles’),
(‘Sierra Leone’),
(‘Singapore’),
(‘Slovakia’),
(‘Slovenia’),
(‘Solomon Islands’),
(‘Somalia’),
(‘South Africa’),
(‘South Georgia and The South Sandwich Islands’),
(‘Spain’),
(‘Sri Lanka’),
(‘Sudan’),
(‘Suriname’),
(‘Svalbard and Jan Mayen’),
(‘Swaziland’),
(‘Sweden’),
(‘Switzerland’),
(‘Syria’),
(‘Taiwan’),
(‘Tajikistan’),
(‘Tanzania’),
(‘Thailand’),
(‘Timor-leste’),
(‘Togo’),
(‘Tokelau’),
(‘Tonga’),
(‘Trinidad and Tobago’),
(‘Tunisia’),
(‘Turkey’),
(‘Turkey’),
(‘Turkmenistan’),
(‘Turks and Caicos Islands’),
(‘Tuvalu’),
(‘Uganda’),
(‘Ukraine’),
(‘United Arab Emirates’),
(‘United Kingdom’),
(‘United States’),
(‘United States Minor Outlying Islands’),
(‘Uruguay’),
(‘Uzbekistan’),
(‘Vanuatu’),
(‘Vatican City’),
(‘Venezuela’),
(‘Vietnam’),
(‘Virgin Islands’),
(‘Wallis and Futuna’),
(‘Western Sahara’),
(‘Yemen’),
(‘Zambia’),
(‘Zimbabwe’)
GO

One quick note: when creating your table, I suggest that you make the ID column an integer and under identity you set it to increment. That way, you won’t need to worry about generating ID’s while adding the countries. Why bother!

bring on the summary of summaries!

I suppose it’s really time for an update isn’t it. In fact, to be fair to you, it’s really past time. Are there any of you reading this thing anymore? I wouldn’t blame you for forgetting about the place. It’s been getting a bit neglected lately.

So, first things first. I’m a married man. I’m really sorry to do this to you all but on new year’s eve, I tied the Knott. Actually, that’s not really true. I didn’t tie it. She did. It’s been really hard typing with these shackles. ?

After the wedding, as is quite normal, we went on honeymoon for a few weeks. Because of the weather over here we thought a warmer temperature would be nice so we took ourselves off to Thailand. If you’re ever thinking of going somewhere a little different then I highly recommend there. I know I should write a blog post about our honeymoon but I haven’t a clue where to start. Maybe I can talk Emma into helping me sort out all the cluttered memories at some stage. It would certainly be a shame not to blog about it.

Let me start off by telling you a little about the wedding. It of course goes without saying that Emma was absolutely angelic and she looked stunning. But of course, you already know that don’t you! There was no sign of any stress from either of us coming up to the wedding so when the day came we easily enjoyed it. However, I really shouldn’t wined her up so much. Sometimes she actually believes me! I’ll say no more after that. I’ll leave it to your imagination. ?

The morning of the wedding was quite busy. My best man Nicky along with his girlfriend Jenny stayed with me in my parents’ house the night before and we had a few things to do before getting to the church. Showering, ordering breakfasts, having a hot towel shave for the first time. Myself, my father and Nicky did that. Jenny went to the hair dressers. In case any of you are feeling funny.

I wasn’t nervous at all on the morning of the wedding. However, sitting in the car on the way to the church with my father and Nicky was when it hit me. Some of the weirdest possibilities went through my head. What if she didn’t turn up? What if the car breaks down? Will I be late? Will guests arrive? I need to pee. Funny actually, I forgot about needing to pee for about two hours after that.

We got to the church and I was a little surprised at the amount of people from our families that were there. Of course, I knew that that many people would show up but I just didn’t expect them all to say hello within the first five minutes. I knew what my responsibilities were. I along with Nicky went to the door of the church to greet people as they went in while all the time secretly in my head wishing for Emma to hurry the hell up.

Suddenly a hurried whisper reached me that she was approaching the church so we hurried up to the alter so as we’d be in the right positions for when she arrived. Again, the weirdest things went through my head. I was thinking that the musicians need to be starting now, the brides made and page boy needed to walk nice and slow and I was hoping desperately that Emma wouldn’t start before the musicians started the wedding march so that what the musicians had planned would go off without a hitch. So many things that had absolutely no importance what so ever flooded my mind and then suddenly they all stopped when the bridal march started and it hit me like a hammer to the stomach. Oh crap. This is it. Not that I wasn’t absolutely certain. That’s not what I mean. But it was a sudden realization that from March when I got down on one knee in the muck in Wicklow all the planning led to this minute. From the time I decided to propose a long time ago until then I had always known that Emma was going to be my wife and we’d be very happy together but the one thing I kind of forgot to consider was the wedding part that marked the start of the whole thing. To say I was nervous would be like saying that the sun is a little warm. My legs felt like jelly. My hands were shaking and my nose was itchy! No. having an itchy nose had absolutely nothing to do with my nerves but it took my mind off them for a second because the age old battle of wills raged in my brain. Scratch nose or don’t scratch nose. That is the question. If I scratch, all the people in the church will see me. Ah no. Their all looking at Emma. They’ll never notice. But what about the damn photographers! They’ll see! And they’ll probably get a picture of it too! Slimy little feckers. All of these silly thoughts sprinted through my cerebellum for the two or three minutes it took Emma to walk down the aisle toward me. Then they all vanished as her father shook my hand and removed her vale. At that stage all I could do was smile, lead her by the arm to our seats and thank god the waiting was over.

The mass went smoothly enough. Of course there were the usual mishaps; the best mad. I mean man, was handed the rings by the flower boy. I mean page boy but he dropped them. Then the priest handed mine to me and yeah, you guessed it, I dropped it too. It made everyone laugh though. All I could do at the time was smile, turn and mumble uups to the people nearest me. People laughed about that one thing for hours during the reception.

After the mass we had a lot of pictures taken by the photographers. It seemed like we stood in various places and in various poses for hours. In the church, outside the church, at the hotel for the reception, outside the hotel, pretending to cut the cake, pretending to carry Emma and more that I’ve blocked from my mind. Those damn photographers drove me crazy! I’m sure they’ve done a great job and I would highly recommend them but I absolutely hate getting photographs taken so the entire time of getting pictures taken was like living in hell for a few years. That might seem dramatic but it’s true.

After the pictures were taken we got to relax and mingle with the crowd a bit. That was probably the first time we had to say a proper hello to people. It was nice to spend a few minutes with as many people as we could thanking them for being there. It is a thing that I used to think was done out of manors or tradition but I must say, for Emma and myself, we were really delighted that every single person came. There were no thank you’s said just for the sake of saying them.

Of course next came the meal. I won’t go into that too much. Basically, it was absolutely lovely. We couldn’t praise the Boyne valley hotel enough. They were nothing less than absolutely amazing. Please do consider them if you’re in Drogheda and your organizing an event. Now, one thing I will talk about briefly is the speeches. As any of you who know Nicky will agree, He’s a brilliant speaker. He can talk for hours to anyone. It’s a brilliant talent to have and he uses it well. He certainly used it well during our wedding anyway! He introduced everyone flawlessly and kept the guests laughing throughout the entire thing. Speeches can become long winded and boring but I would hope that our guests didn’t think that of ours. I was going to tell you about all the mistakes people made during speeches but it would have been a very long list. Instead, I’ll just say that the only person not to make a mistake and the most natural speaker of all was actually Emma. I say that with a little bit of surprise I will admit but it’s only because it was Emma who was the only one that really didn’t want to say anything. She agreed to stand up when we decided to give some small gifts out to parents, grandparents, the best man, the brides made, the flower girl and the page boy. The way she went around and personally thanked each one was very nice and natural. Keeping in mind that Nicky entertained us very well, I think Emma did herself very proud. The best line of the night has to be from the brides made when she got up and said very clearly; “Holy crackers. I’m a bit drunk” before launching into her speech.

We’re looking forward to getting the pictures from the photographer of course but the thing I’m really looking forward to is getting the DVD from the company who supplied us with a video booth. People who came to the wedding were able to step outside the main reception room and leave a video message for us. As the night went on and the drink flowed the messages seem to have got a lot more entertaining. There are even one or two videos that will feature me. Although, I’m a little bit afraid of them.

Of course there was some really nice music throughout the day. Two really good friends of mine Trudy and Andrew performed during the mass, the Willing fools played during the reception and two more very good friends Malachi and Noreen played at different times during the day as well. Other musicians came but didn’t play all that much of course but it was brilliant that they were there. As you’d expect, I couldn’t just sit around and listen to that much good music without joining in from time to time but I was warned by my mother not to go missing too much so I kept my participation to a minimum. Well, ok, to tell you the truth, I kept it to a minimum until about 3AM in the morning when we went to the residents bar. Then I didn’t stop until 8:30AM that morning.

The day after went by so fast that I hardly remember it. We took stuff back from the hotel, went to see my parents, left Emma’s mother back to the bus, got some food very generously offered by my mother and then got about three hours sleep before traveling to the airport very early on Wednesday morning to leave for our honeymoon.

Come back again shortly for the first post about the honeymoon. It’s something I really need to write about sooner rather than later.

Since coming back we’ve both being doing great. Life has returned to normal which is really nice. The first thing I did when returning home was collect Nama, my guide dog. It’s really brilliant to have him back again. I actually missed him when I was away.

Nama is really settling in well. Of course, being away from me for three weeks set him back a little bit but he’s back to the stage in his development that he was at before Christmas so it can only get better from here. He’s anticipating where we need to go and he knows when it’s time to relax. Now that the weather is slowly getting a little better, during the days that are nice and mild we go for a nice long walk around Dublin city centre. We start by letting him relieve himself in Stephens green then we do a lap or two of the park. We cut in and out of various pathways to vary the route a little and then we exit the green and depending on our mood we either take a route that is nice and active or quiet. Now that Nama is getting accustomed to these variations in our routine and he knows that there’s no hurry to reach a particular destination I find that he’s really starting to relax when we’re out for a pleasurable walk. It’s nice because when he relaxes I can play with him while walking. This playing can be as simple as reaching over with my right hand and tipping his ear. Or dropping the handle and trying to grab his tail. It won’t put him off his stride but it focuses his attention back on me and he knows that we’re in a good mood and work can be fun. Nama is a dog that really loves to use his teeth so after a few tips of his ear he tries to play using his mouth. This is when things can get really entertaining for him. We slow right down and he pushes right into me. Nama is not a sensitive dog at all but the change in his mood after these short play sessions can be quite obvious. He really loves the interaction.

Life like dominos.

It has really struck me lately how much the timeline of events has a profound impact on life.  I know. That sounds absolutely stupid so let me explain.

For example: Do I go left or right today.  I’ll go left.  Two hours later you hear that there’s been a crash on the road to the right and you would have been in the middle of it.

I know these things are absolutely obvious but for some reason over the past four days my life has been like a line of dominos.  Things falling in or out of place like there was a real master plan behind them. If things that happened in the past day or two had happened about two months ago, my life would have profoundly changed direction.  Maybe for the better, maybe not! Who knows!

I’m currently on a cliff facing the wrong direction with my head covered in a big thick hood. Things will happen very soon that are going to plunge me off that cliff backward.

I can’t say what they are. Their both personal and professional.  There’s no point speculating, your guesses will be wrong.

If it was not for the very specific sequence of events and the time they took place that led me to this situation today I would be overwhelmingly afraid.  It is the strange way that fate has conspired to bring me to this moment that has assured me without any shadow of a doubt that although I’m falling without a safety net, the landing will be as smooth as it can be.

I’m not a religious person.  I have major reservations when it comes to the belief in a god however; it really brings the old saying to mind “God moves in mysterious ways”.

I’m not in a particularly contemplative mood and I could hardly say that I’ve had any kind of sudden realization. It just seems strange that the cards fell in this order.  At certain times, I didn’t think that I wanted this order, but I’m more than happy with it now.