I can’t really place my finger on how 2019 has been for me so far. Way too many ups and downs for me to really keep track of. Hey, can someone answer me this. As you get older, do you begin to forget the negatives, or do they just mean less? Serious question.
Here’s a really quick breakdown from oldest to newest news in 2019.
- Talked to someone who imminently wanted to kill himself. I’m still trying to get my head around that one. I could go into that topic so much. But I won’t.
- Took my mother in law and my two children and wife to America so that my mother in law could see her sister. It was the first time in 27 years that they had met in person. The two of them didn’t seem too overwhelmed by it, but I don’t think I’ll ever forget that moment when they met at the door of the house in Dallas.
- Enjoyed the second year of the Fleadh in Drogheda. Anyone who has read this blog knows how much I love traditional Irish music. To have it in my hometown meant way more than anyone could understand.
- Louth county Council and the organizers of the Fleadh took Music at the Gate away from me during the Fleadh. I tried my very best to make this a success, but certain organizers made this impossible unfortunately.
- A friend that I’ve had for years has completely turned her back on me. This has cut through me like a rusty blade for over a year now. I have no idea what I’ve done wrong. I’ve had many sleepless nights over it. This person comes up in my memories on Facebook nearly every week. It is a sense of particularly massive torment to think that I’ve done something so bad to her, but I have absolutely no idea what I’ve done. It has lead to me seriously questioning all personal interactions in my life and I’ll admit here because, why the hell not, I’ve distanced myself from a lot of social interactions because I am so anxious not to make the same mistake twice but I have no idea what that mistake is. It overshadows everything in 2019. I’m still not sure how to get over it. What makes it worse is I strongly suspect that this person has been talking about my wrongdoing to other people in our mutual circle of friends and the change has been about as subtle as a force 8 Earthquake.
- In work, things have been really good. I enjoy what I do. I’m challenged, the people I work with are fantastic and I believe in the outcome.
There you have it. Social media can seem very positive. Everything looks great. But with Blogging, I’ve always felt that I can be a lot more open. So, there’s the good, the bad and the ugly for everyone to see. Comments are welcome.